I decided to create a new post to tell everyone out there that I am gonna start to study properly, and I swear to death that I will.

Also, I won't be blogging every single day, unlike what I have guiltily done in my holidays. Hence, I have decided not to blog till next Tuesday or something, when I have more free time in the afternoon to waste.

I used to think, in my Sec 1 and 2 years, that failing examinations were totally impossible, and that getting retained or expelled was just some crappy excuse teachers had made up for students as a stick, so that the students were able to enjoy the carrot ahead.

Well, guess what? Getting retained or expelled is not a pipe dream anymore. Its the real world, where anything is bloody possible.

I shall concentrate hard on Geography now, and study till 1 today.

I think I'm feeling that "sense of urgency" now. And I've never deemed it a "sense of urgency", because I always believed that it wasn't the "sense of urgency" in my case - ever -, but maybe "sense of irritation" which occured most when I can't answer math questions; or "sense of desperation" when I needed someone to help me with my science.

"Sense Of Urgency".

My mum's in another country, so that means that my dad feels a stronger obligation to take care of me. Meaning: He is going to force me to sleep at 10, and force-feed me. Again. I'm not gonna obey him.

Its times like these when I totally get exasperated by my parents for not being able to "understand". But then again, its not them. Its this stupid notion instilled in me that obstructs me from the path to true happiness.

I don't think I ever felt this tired before. Ever.